Friday, July 19, 2013

FAVORITE SONG LIST

Acoustic songs:
Seven swans -Sufjan Stevens
Such Great Heights -Iron and Wine
Size Too Small- Sufjan Stevens
Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop

Older songs:
Mr Brightside -The Killers
Miserable at Best 
Black Cat -Mayday Parade
Hero Heroine- Boys Like Girls
Last dinosaurs
Somebody told me -The Killers

Dubstep!:
Sanctuary KH 
Introduction to Dubstep
Going in for the kill -Skrillex
Time [We Plants Are Happy Remix] Hans Zimmer 

Everything else:
Electra Heart- Marina and the Diamonds
Why do you only call me when youre high- Arctic Monkeys
Puppet- Gregory and the Hawk
Round and ROund- Imagine Dragons
Sufjan stevens- Sister winter
sufjan stevens- Romulus
hadouken- M.A.D
Terrified- Among Savages
The Neighborhood- All of their songs
Switzerland- The Last Bison
The Moment I Said It -Imogen Heap
Lets go -Imogen Heap
In Fact- Gregory and the Hawk
Season poem- Gregory and the Hawk
Stranger - Katie Costello
Loveeeeeeee song -Rihanna
Tourist- Yuna
Cemeteries of London- Coldplay
The Scientist- Coldplay
Mad World
Almost Lovers
Satisfied - Marina And the Diamonds

If anyone actually reads this, they should comment some good songs!
-B

Thoughts


Ever wonder why I have so many mirrors... Why I feel the need to see myself over, and over, and over again? If I hate my body so much, why do I feel the remind myself of it. It's so ironic, that I place all of these mirrors around. The only reason I do is because I feel that I will accept me. The hope that there is another me somewhere. In a parallel universe, maybe there's another me that shares my thoughts. Everyday I think that I'm  fine, I don't need to work out because my body is fine the way it is. Then there Are some wake up calls. Your friends telling you you're gonna get fat... Your family telling you you're fat... Just the little things that chip away at you. That build to the crack that is protecting your sanity. Everyone has problems, sure. You hear about it every day. People coming to you or your friends and ranting their problems. I don't share my problems... People would consider them stupid and petty because I have a "perfect life" and I'm not poor or my problems are not enough compared to theirs. I'm screaming. I don't know what I'm doing, but I always managed to tape myself up, and wake up the next day. All of these things that just happen around me. People don't hear me. I don't know if it's the way I talk, or if people just don't want to. They don't want to listen to the golden child and her stupid thoughts. Maybe that's what I am, a stupid thought. Just something useless. I'm not really sure anymore. 
       Here I am, sitting in my bed, writing my problems. Heh. It's funny that now I'm just not paying attention to what I'm writing. Just babbling and letting the tick and tap of my keyboard sooth my tears. How pathetic.
         I believe that I have mirrors because I can have someone to turn to. Someone who isn't busy and who isn't angry at me. I find myself talking to myself.... Staring into my own eyes as if they didn't belong to me anymore. What have I become. What will I become... The cracks are getting bigger and it makes me wonder what's gonna happen when I shatter. Will I break into a million pieces unnoticed, or will I just... Break. Loose all emotion and feeling that causes me pain... And just float. Maybe one day I'll meet me. See what I'm really like. That would be nice.